I finished a good and enjoyable afternoon of editing and updating The Hidden earlier this evening and as always, I wasn’t so happy when the clock struck stopping time.  I still crave more time immersed in this process, in this story, and looking ahead, I’m not sure I’ll get to write at all next weekend and that’s already somewhat of a bummer.

I also have to confess, and this is gonna sound really strange, odd, off even, that I, at times, okay, most of the time, actually envy the lives my main characters lead.  How can that be?  I “created” them.  I’m giving them purpose, life and an adventure to live.  I know (for the most part) what lies behind them and ahead of them.  I tell them what to say, what to do, what to wear, how to act and where to stand.  I write them.  They can’t do much at all without me and yet still, deep down, I read of them and I envy them…

Man, I sure hope this is normal!


About malcolm2030

I started my formal study of a traditional Japanese martial art during my freshman year in college in late 1990 and in early 2017, I took a leap of faith and have been teaching traditional martial arts and fitness on a full-time basis. I enjoy researching and exploring topics ranging from health and fitness, brain science and quantum physics, to relational dynamics, energy, and optimum living. I believe that we all should be daily evolving toward our true potential; while there will be times when we fall back, or get pushed back, or knocked down, the sum of our steps over a given period of time should be forward.
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2 Responses to Jealousy…

  1. I know what you mean, Eric…I’ve been there before…Our characters seem to have their own life, independence, despite our efforts to control them…They are just too powerful (from my point of view). Still, aren’t they a projection of our ideal life, dreams, hopes? That may be the reason for which we envy our own characters, as they lead a life we dream of…they have this privilege.
    I’m looking forward to reading your book…Keep on working hard, as I’m sure the result will be amazing!


    • malcolm2030 says:

      Yes, my friend, you are right. I do think this is normal and actually a good thing…if we don’t feel anything for our own characters, how can we even hope that our readers will, right?

      Thank you!!


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